People make MISTAKES, no matter it is big like my brother's a** or as little as my faith on my short term memory ability..

Some people feel sorry for their mistakes, some people don't.. For they who don't, I think that's not because they don't realy regret it, but they try to believe that they are not and they will not, they don't want to suffer in regret.. Yeah, feel sorry as far as I now is not an amusement feeling, but is it wise enough to hide from the truth? can we lie to ourself? I can't! can you? I'll kiss your a** if you said yes with no lies..

Why the hell I'm talking about this thing? It's not my casual activity and I absolutely not well-trained in doing this sentimental-emotional writing.. Actually I Just want to say (even not sure is there anybody will listen..) that I realy feel sorry for all the stupidity I've done in my life, for the biggest mistakes I've done,

For stopping the stupid bad feeling I've maintained for a couple of weeks.. I want to say that I SURELY BELIEVE THAT I'M SORRY.. I regret all the things I've done to that thing, because that's the most wortless thing to be fight for..

I surely deserve a better battle..
I shouldn't this stupid, I don't want to die in a battle like this..
and I'm not running away..